madonna - human nature

I have meet many people over the years who continually self analyze there BDSM/Femdom activity.
Are you that type of person who looks inside them self for answers to every impulse?
I must say that I don’t do it much anymore. I have tried it a number of times but either came up with nothing or an answer that has been hard to come to grips with.

Some examples ?

I was born this way..
But if I was born this way that would imply my genetic heritage from my parents would have been responsible. My brother does show some submissive sexual traits, given the fact of him being male, and me being female the ‘results’ of our genetics cocktails have made opposite spectrums in opposites sexes...plausible maybe. but then this ‘genetic’ result would in essence , show itself in more family units.

Outside influences..
influenced and molded me at a young age...also plausible in my case while maturing as a teen I was ‘exposed’ to BDSM/Femdom which in turn could of lead me down the perverted path

My self analysis...I am who and what I am. why question what I enjoy or what makes me feel good !!!!
I enjoy my wander down the perverted path.

forgotten post

I’ve had this sitting on my hard drive to post for some time and after reading
http://jssubc.blogspot.com/2006/09/fantasy-vs-reality.html (fantasy V’s reality is a good read check it out !!)
if refreshed my memory..I was going delete it
(forgotten posting)
Things can and do go wrong
I was thinking the other night its been awhile since I’ve had anything go wrong on a play. T he odd wrap around off the cat or a mark that took little longer than I anticipated to fadeout but nothing too major...we have had the odd laugh were its been impossible to continue due to shrieking laughter. like the time the long tailed flogger got stuck on the door handle and I hurt my shoulder. or the time my 8 inch heel got stuck in a chain attached to my darlin’s neck causing me to fall off the bed in a undignified manor landing spread eagle on top of a sub spaced Oz who had to rapidly return back to earth or risk strangulation. But all in all our track record of injuries has been limited...Oz has only used his safe word on me once in 9 years which is funny now but at the time I kept going with my actions due to not remembering what his safe word was LOL
It seems on the net you never hear of the things that go wrong. blogs are always pointed towards success. the look what I did theory. the I’m so good I never stuff up theory but the truth is things can and do go wrong sometimes it just mood cant be maintained or the level off what you wanted to achieve just doesn't meet expectations its not that my sub is not good enough or my skills are lacking, its just Life. things can and do go wrong!!

Internet is for Porn

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The Dildo Song

I have this on our forum pages but thought the blogger readers might like it ..its quiet catchie so you have been warned LOL

50 things

I'm A Bitch


50 things in my life the good and the bad in random order thought it might help you to know me better
1 My darlin’ Oz is my boy
2 I am bisexual
3 My children are my life force
4 My life style choice means the world to me
5 friends are important
6 My internet friends are closer to me than my extended family
7 I die with out coffee. that would be white no sugar I’m sweet enough *cough* yeah right lol
8 I’m a smoker. no lectures I know there bad :P and no the cough wasn't from the smokes :P
9 Mmm chocolate anything. did I say chocolate
7 salads love the crunchy feel of it. the freshness. I hate soggy toast
8 anything chicken. (Gawd I’m hungry might not be the best time to write this LOL)
9 My vacuum cleaner. yes I love my vac (I have a clean floor fetish) shut up Mickey yes I know it’s a clean house fetish)
10 Sleep and more sleep (oh to wake up with out alarm clocks or kids jumping on me or putting weird objects in my mouth/ears/up nose)
11 Ropes /leathers. the smell the feel they turn me on
12 Bondage/restraints are my main kink
13 My toy box/fav in box. box who am I kidding box what box ..room. is my cats :D
14 Fav accessory. My st Andrews cross that my darling’ made for me
15 My bedroom...is my space ..my safe haven
16My favorite room is my bedroom least fav Laundry
16 Sunlight...hate gloomy days but love the night
17 I love to be with company but also love to be alone. the middle ground the in-between makes me uncomfortable
18 Pets two cats...favorite animals Dogs especialy Great Danes other favs tawny frogmouth eagles, rats , bats and lizards
19 Favorite basic sexual position. on top holding onto my brass bed head with a tied male so I can see his face. least fav missionary (I hate to be pinned down)
20 I adore giving blow jobs and the taste of cum...and feel the most in control and dominant at that time
21 Fav colour..purple..but I don't wear it. mostly black. latent Goth I think lol
22Car choice FORD unless it’s a Monaro (happy now Oz)
23 Fav TV show of all time mmm now this is hard it’s a toss up between Queer as folk all that hot gay flesh or Dark angel but then star gate drifts in there to and so does the pretender….guess they all have a common theme they have a body in each of them that I’d love to Domme for a 24 hour period LOL
24 My weakness Bad boy diamond in the rough type guys
25 My strong points a positive outlook on life and the belief I can do anything just as long as there is no time period involved (might take me awhile but I will achieve what I set out to do)
26 Goal in life. to enjoy it and know I have done all I could do and wanted to do
27 I love and enjoy the written word but hate punctuation and spelling I’m dyslexic
28 I talk to much when I’m tired and most people tell me to shut up when I am
29 I love fast cars..love to drive fast. and I suck at driving
30 I never answer my telephone but love to talk on it
31 biggest hate in the Femdom world...money Domes. get off your ass and make your own money ..sorry no disrespect to them its just not for me. I have to pay my own way and be independent
32 bad habits. smoking and being to trusting to others. rushing when I don't have too
33 good habits...finding the humor in everything
34 things I cant change but would like too. my height (2 inches shorter would be nice) that every child had a warm bed a full tummy and happy family life...and that every one had their sexual desires meet in their lives at least once. 35 I want a tattoo but I can’t decide what I want. leaning toward BDSM tribal/Celtic styling (why ..why not?)
36 I haven’t had a holiday in a long time and every time I plan one something goes wrong that’s out of my control
37 I traveled Europe and Australia for 10 years in the 90’s
38 my strap on has a name .Its miss Barbara (long story)
39 I have a boot addition that I’m slowly out growing
40 I now have a shoe addition LOL
41 one week with out my beloved internet is like morning the loss a loved one
42 every day I make sure I tell my kids I love them. and that I will love them no matter what. I think I over tell them...I get in reply some days yeah yeah we know mum LOL.
43 I own too much lingerie but not enough every day ‘normal stuff’ getting ready to ‘play’ takes me forever but I do it on purpose. I like to keep My darlin’ Oz waiting.
44 I get very upset with myself if I leave marks that are visible the following night if I haven't meant to leave them.
45 I’m a push over for a sad face and a stray
46 I will give everything a go and will only say I cant do it after I have tried it first.
47 I will never write this bloody list again LOL
48 the biggest compliment I ever got. I got from my kids and that was that I’m a good mum and every kid should have a mum that’s fun to hang out with but knows when its time to stop being silly LOL
49 I have a new interest in electro play toys...to be continued
50 YAY lucky last….I love my life and I am happy with my lot in life and wouldn’t change it :-D

For you ESR..I will survive

CAKE - I Will Survive

Well its been I while since I posted any thing half way remotely interesting or something that showed that I have an ounce of intelligence in my dyslexic brain so I thought I might share the reasons
I seem to have this block at the moment with letting people into my world> This is a problem which I have never had in the past anybody that know me will know I’m a fairly open person what you see is what is you get and if you don't like what I have to say ..well f#$%& off ..or words a little more ladylike and cultured at first I thought it was the need to keep my family private but its more than that ..opening up on my Blog means allowing my past to escape ..it means saying goodbye to some demons ..and the ever increasing risk of past demons reoccurring its not that I have any thing to hide from LOL I’m not ashamed of my past it made me who and what I am today ..my past formed and molded me into what I have be come ..a happy sexually dominant woman who knows what she likes and desires ..knows her body what it needs and craves. .but it also holds a huge fear. .oh yes bonnie has fears after all I’m human aren’t I ??? Lol
My fear you ask? ..it’s my ex slave finding me and ripping me from my happy place (once again) but I have come to the decision ..I tell my boys face your fear ..embrace it control it don't let it control you. .and dam him I’ve been scared of him years hiding and lurking (well as best as a 6 foot tall blonde Domme can)_ No one control's me every one that tried gave up a long time ago ..I know he will never give up while I’m alive but that’s just it I’m alive ..I have to live and he can only take my happy place if I let him
my body still has the scars ..my mind is no longer scarred, and no longer scared ..its time for me to open up let ‘new’ people into my world..
this is for you ESR

sneaker pimps simple girl ( i am x)

A friend I have made recently, made this I think he has done a great job and I wanted to share it...hope you enjoy it as much as I did